Don’t Stop Believin’

Although I would rather not write this blog, I was the one who opened my big mouth, I feel obliged to report about my 30-day challenge. This week was not good!! Just to put it bluntly!! I did not eat healthily. I did not exercise. I did not make positive choices, period!!

โ€œIโ€™ve been on a diet for two weeks and all Iโ€™ve lost is fourteen days.โ€ ~Totie Fields

This quote sums me up perfectly!! Except mine has only been 7 days, you get the point!!
I am really disappointed in myself. Surprised? No. But very disappointed. I am not going to dwell on it. It’s a new week so I have to move on. Just dust off my knees and say “Well crap!” and move on!

Not to make excuses, but it probably wasn’t the best week to start this challenge. I know you can say that about every week in your life if you allow yourself. There’s always something. With the boys home, I am making breakfast, lunch, and dinner….Plus snack! I find myself eating when I am not even hungry or worse waiting too long to eat and then pig out!!

I am going to shake myself really hard and snap out of this funk! I have to hold myself more accountable. One of my favorite, go-to sayings is “What’s right doesn’t always feel good, though what feels good isn’t always right.” That being said, time to get uncomfortable!!!! (I will update next Monday my progress!!)

On to regular life, the kids are back in school after a two-week spring break!! Yay!! It was pretty good overall considering we had no real plans. Had a few nice days so the boys could play outside! That was a lifesaver!!
During the break, and since we were just at home, we worked on some things. Cleaned out rooms, sold some stuff, etc. We also worked on some behaviors.
For example, tone and wording were a biggie. The boys and I would get up in the morning, Wyatt would say “I want a pop tart, then cereal, and chocolate milk.” Noah would say “Give me Honey Nut Cheerios with grandpa’s honey, orange juice, and then I want a waffle.” This ran all over me!! Then one of them would say “Daddy gives us our vitamins! Where are my vitamins?”  JP would be crying at my feet while I am attempting to run my kitchen like an all night diner! To put it mildly, it wasn’t working!
I blame Matthew for some of this bc, well, it’s his fault, and he is the type to have the same kind of cereal every morning, with the same amount of orange juice that he pours into a glass and takes his vitamins the same way. THE SAME WAY EVERYDAY!! Sometimes I suggest “Let’s get wild!! Apple juice for breakfast!” I swear I don’t think he could do it!!
Anyway, sorry I got off topic! I told the boys that isn’t how you ask for things, I am not your maid, blah, blah, blah. (I am sure that’s what they heard!!) Yet, I am happy to report, by week 2 day 3, Noah said “Mama, after you finish feeding JP his breakfast, will you fix me a bowl of Honey Nut Cheerios with the honey from grandpa’s on top?” (He says the whole thing every time like I would forget how he has to have it!) I was thrilled!!!! I finally felt as though all these lectures and rants were finally working!!
What’s that I see? Is it a light at the end of that dark tunnel I have stared down!!! Yep, I do believe it is……. Now if I could only grow a penis just to teach them how to aim the damn thing!!!! Stop dripping pee on the floor!!Or on the seat! Or their clothes!! Baby steps…..Baby steps…..

 

Thinking of doing this in the boys bathroom!! Seriously!

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2 Responses

  1. Jill Bernhardt says:

    Hey, I better subscribe to get the email.. I completely missed this post. What I want to say, well, first is… I AM RIGHT THERE WITH YOU, and second, do NOT beat yourself up and be disappointed with yourself. If you are anything like me and many other women in the world, then that will only lead to more emotional eating out of feeling like a failure every time you try to make a better decision and don't. I am an expert at that tactic. ๐Ÿ™‚ I love reading your blog. All this sweet light at the end of the tunnel stuff then BAM, "Now if I could only grow a penis"!!! You crack me up! It's great!

    PS – Back to the 30 day challenge, here's some positive things to remember… or try to remember! ๐Ÿ˜‰ lol

    โ€œFeelings are indicators, not dictators. They can indicate where your heart is in the moment, but that doesn't mean they have the right to dictate your behavior and boss you around. You are more than the sum total of your feelings and perfectly capable of that little gift . . . called self-control.โ€
    โ€• Lysa TerKeurst, Unglued: Making Wise Choices in the Midst of Raw Emotions

    โ€œI was made for more than being stuck in a vicious cycle of defeat. I am not made to be a victim of my poor choices. I was made to be a victorious child of God.โ€
    โ€• Lysa TerKeurst, Made to Crave: Satisfying Your Deepest Desire with God, Not Food

    Keep it up, girl!

  2. gingerfinn says:

    Thanks for the encouragement Jill!! You know how I love a good quote!! I have done a bit better this week, but as you know it's a marathon not a sprint!!

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